Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
'Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
Give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Yes, I do need to get back to God. Somewhere along this road of serving Him and doing His work, I've lost that closeness and child-like dependence that I had before. It isn't a sudden realization that I don't know God anymore, but it's more like I've been working with a colleague for a long time without getting to really know his heart, his passion or his dreams.
So when I heard that song for the first time on Friday, it really encouraged me. It made me think back to my past attempts in building discipline to spend time with God daily. The conclusion, "I can't do this on my own."
Many times I would always look inward to find the strength needed to build my life, to make myself a better person. But more often than not, I find that I don't possess such strength; I fall short. But that's the beauty of it: "For when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Cor 12:10) Because I am weak, His strength starts to show in me.
So Lord, please give me one more chance. I won't give up this pursuit of disciplined relationship with You, "Jesus take the wheel."